okay.. this feels so weird.. you know like how you're so used to doing something and then you stop for whatever reason.. but then you find it hard to go back to how it used to be? yeah,well.. i kinda feel like that now.. tsk. it's so me.. like if i like something,i'll be obsessed with it for like about a week and then i'll get nausea just thinking about it.. like how i used to love eating blueberry pie for a whole month and now i get sick just thinking about it.. and even songs.. haha! like there was this one time when i would only listen to old hindi songs, now they kinda make me feel all weird. i dunno.. maybe i should change.. but like how? i mean,it's not as easy as some people make it out to be. anyway,i've been feeling so crappy these few days. my nose resembles some sort of volcanic eruption site and i feel honestly horrible. ack! and then tmr is the freaking GP exam,. i dun care what it takes,i'm gonna do.. even if it means drinking that stupid Lemsip thingie tonight..
yeah i know i know.. it's been a long time since i wrote anything in here at all.. but still.. cut me some slack.. the computer at home was recuperating for an absurdly long time and it's still sputtering when it comes to life.. it's not a fair life but someone's got to live it..
oh i've missed you so much! i can't believe i'm actually saying this to some inanimate object but hey, i've been studying alot and i guess all my hardwork has paid off.. or in other words.. my transformation to a geek is complete .. oh well, things could be worse i guess.. wait, who am i kidding? i'm in the middle of my freaking Os.. Mmhm... yeah well.. whatever..
honestly.. this is disgusting.. China knowing about the Sanlu milk scandal four months before telling the public on one side and on the other, hungry children in the rural parts of the world not having even the basic necessities.. i mean, how selfish have we become to notice only our sufferings, our pain, our emo-ness and forget about the many millions who do not have a proper bed to sleep on? seriously, if you are whining about how your parents don't understand you, nobody loves you or why you're such a social disease.. you should honestly reconsider.. sure, you have problems.. who doesn't? i mean, come on even Paris Hilton has problems (i'll bet she doesn't know what a cosine rule is).. not to mention Abraham Lincoln (whose own wife was incessantly nagging at him all the time)..
i know i know.. i'm not supposed to be here.. but i was bored and tired and well.. i couldn't bear to look at my books a second longer.. so whatever..
Some surprises are good.. and some are just plain GREAT.. and guess what i'm feeling right now? Wait. don't guess.. i'll tell you.. I'm feeling like nothing could ever go wrong..nothing could ever rain on my parade.. it's love.. i tell you.. this upside-down feeling.. it's LOVE.. i just can't wait to see him again.. i've never seen anyone like him.. it's just so.. weird.. i never thought i'd ever feel this way about anyone.. EVER.. but wow.. he's just so incredible and amazing.. i'm going whatever i can to make this right.. i can't possibly think of a day without him..
i swear to God.. life has got surprises at every bend.. in every nook and cranny.. just about everywhere. some of them might be good.. some might even be GREAT.. cuz guess what? i just LOVE this surprise.. it was so amazing to look at him.. his hands.. his little heart beating so fast and so loud.. i think i might just be in love with him.. it's just so cool.. i never even thought that i'd ever see him like that.. it's just so.. i can't even begin to explain it.. it's so exciting.. i can't wait to see him again.. shoot.. i'm getting so ahead of myself.. i feel weird.. sheesh.. heh heh.. i really love this guy..
okay here we go..
