today was certainly unusual.. it was in some ways a bad day yet there were some strking things about it..is that what life is like? i wonder... talking to Mrs Aidil turned out to be very informative.. i don't want to sound too prim and proper here, but i would rather spend an hour talking with someone older and who makes more sense than laugh and fool around with people closer to my age.. of course, that doesn't neccesarily rule out casual conversations with my friends of course.. but repeating the same stuff over and over again.. anyway.. Labels: Because i would rather miss you like this than keep missing what i want you to be...
it's not good to have expectations.. sometimes when you expect something from a person, you end up being disappointed and all your hopes are just dashed.. but when you don't expect something from someone and that person actually gives you something, be it anything, it gives you sheer joy.. When i do something for someone, it is usually because i truly believe that by doing so, i will make that person happy.. i might get hurt in the process, like i did once before, but all that doesn't really matter if I am able to bring a smile to that person's face. but it saddens me when i do something for that person and that person ends up making a joke out of the whole thing or just appreaciate it. i'm not asking for flowers, but a simple Thank You would more than suffice. But then i suppose, that would be expecting something from someone..
what exists? what doesn't?
let's just make each other happy instead of moping about whatever that makes you sad... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBE_T-K8nhY
I'm getting sick of people whining to me all the time.. i know i've said this countless times before.. but i really need to reiterate my point back here.. it's freaking annoying! like when i tell you something is true.. i usually mean it unless i'm laughing, for which you can, if you have an ounce of common sense, assume that i'm being sarcastic.. but most of the time, though, no.. i'm not being sarcastic. when i tell you to bloody flip over the fraction.. i bloody mean it! no offence..
i think it's time we stopped being friends.. we just ignore each other all the time anyway.. what's the point of being invisible friends? I don't know.. do you?
the cold summer breeze
swipes against my face
making it as cold as winter
since the day you broke my heart...
12:06 AM.
" Sunday, July 06, 2008
Getting hurt in the process is something i've learnt to live with too.. i try and do something good for that person, but then it just backfires... i'm not pushing the blame to anyone.. it's my fault. i suppose i'm just not able to understand what i'm supposed to do. when people tell me their problems, i find it hard to not do anything.. if i'm able to give advice, i always do.. but then again.. anyway.. and if they need anything, i'll do whatever i can to provide it for them.. but is a Thanks so hard to imagine? Does that exist at all? or am i just making it up, again a fragment of my imagination?
5:55 AM.
" Saturday, July 05, 2008
the tears, the rain, the sun?
sometimes i want to say something but it just doesn't feel right to say it to you although, i want to say it to you.. the things i feel like saying, although they carry alot of my emotions within them, feel suddenly childish and juvenille and stupid. they don't come out the way i do. when i see you, i feel like telling you everything but then i stop short and instead keep them to myself.. what if you didn't understand what i was trying to say? the fact that the world wouldn't understand matter to me as much you not being able to understand it. do you exist? or am i just making you up from my imagination? are you a fragment of a silly wish i made as a girl or are you out there somewhere.. smiling.. understanding.. am i making you up? or are you truly like that?
1:28 AM.
" Friday, July 04, 2008
