um.. today was very.. unusual.. during english today, i went to the library to see if Miss Lappen was in or not and then i met jayraj and rishabh.. and then it turned out that Mss Lappen wasn't in after all.. so i spent the whole hour with them.. it was very strange.. i mean, in general, i'm a good girl.. i haven't got into any trouble since p4 when i went to Nature's Park with a bunch of friends.. anyway.. i can't really write down here the stuff that happened.. cuz if some nosey pig reads about this, we could get in a lot of trouble.. but whatever.. it wa super funny.. oh yeah.. then i was like laughing the whole time, and when i went back to class, people thought i'd gone mental..since the side effects were just about wearing off.. haha.. then my dad picked me up since it was raining so heavily.. ah .. whatever.. it's so much like London now.. keeps raining like as though tmr's never gonna come or something.. Tsk Tsk.. oh and Izwan is Very Cute.. (haha) :) what on earth.. the guy's like some kind of ball of energy.. haha..
whoa.. i wonder what is wrong me.. i'm so fickle-minded.. and so easily influenced .. like the time i was a vegetarian for three whole months..before stuffing my face with a cheeseburger back in Sec1.. anyway... the thing is i'm fickle-minded..end of story.. Big Cheer for the Big Confession!
got some here.. but they're not half as good.. i mean we all think that living in HDB estates is bad and so tight and you know, too close.. but it just made me realise how very selfish we were being.. when i was talking to a friend of mine yesterday, she told me she still had alot of things to buy (read: all branded stuff) are we really that brand-conscious? Converse has its factories in South America where the workers are paid cheap dirt for things you buy for 50 bucks.. is it really worth it? i mean, come on.. just because you're a teenager doesn't mean that global warming doesn't affect you.. you can make a difference by doing loads of stuff..like for example; using both sides of a paper for when you're doing your math equations... stubbing out that ciggarette(why are you polluting with your mouth when there are so many other things for your mouth to do , like voicing out?)..not buying branded stuff, but saving up to donate to a worthy cause... come on.. is that really so hard to comprehend? look at the pictures.. if you were that kid in that picture, what would be going through your mind then? food? clothes? whether your parents are still alive? why can't we work together to banish those thoughts now? Voice out people! remember you're never too young to make a difference
last night when i woke up at 3am..i had a most painful sensation of something stabbing into my neck. i woke up awkwardly and then realised that i could not move the right side of my neck at all. the minute i tried, spasms of pain would shoot down my entire right side until my feet. it was not until this morning that i was assured that i was not permanently handicapped, it was very stiff muscles, caused by-go on try guessing- stress. it was so bloody painful, i couldn't even get up in the morning.. it hurt that bad. it still hurts now.. but not as much.. and then i've been sleeping the whole day because of the painkillers the doctor prescribed. oh.. i have to go now..
gosh.. i'm so hungry today.. i ate like a plate of noodles(have no idea what the name was..) with loads of chilli on it and then at jurong point , drank bubble tea and then bought like three doughnuts.. i'm on a eating-frenzy.. anyway.. people shouldn't just pop in and out of the air just like that.. it's spooky.. and plain weird.. was having a kind of a bad day today.. after having a really bad dream last night.. even thinking of it now makes me shudder.. it was just so.. real and so.. there.. it was so weird...and then god. after meeting a not-so-special someone today, my day got even worse.. i mean hello? everyone on this goddamn earth has got responsibilities..you can't just commit at one point and then act as though i was the wrong one.. i 've got things to do too, you know.. i'm not exactly just sitting around doing nothing right... ACK!! bloody freaks.. tsk.. ignorant masses of lucified headcases..whatever.. go do your bloody drawing and shoot bloody baskets... hmpf.. i don't give a rat's arse about it anymore...
today was a very thoughtful day.. i mean in the morning i was feeing a bit pissed because of my dad's aunt..not to be rude or anything but i seriously can't stand nagging and people asking me questions like every five seconds.. anyway.. then some stupid freak went to put the bloody twigs in my hair.. had to release my braid and tie my hair up in a ponytail. but it was like so messy cuz i didn't bring any hair clips.. some people have got nothing better to do.. nutcase.. anyway.. Mr Ching was absent today so i was like doing my hindi compos.. 12 to be exact.. ( i know what you're going to say Divya.. no.. i'm not nuts, i really did do all of the worksheets..) oh Chemistry lesson was miffing.. it was like so freaky.. the potassium iodide turned yellow.. Ack.. then after school, waited for Constance so that we could discuss the collaboration.. oh and we have the same birthday..wow.. definitely gonna celebrate man! (even though it's gonna be final-year-exams) Whatever.. oh and then since we found out that we had to push back the whole thing, the collaboration, i mean.. we had lunch with hui yi and hafizah and then we played truth or dare.. Oh. My.. it was super funny... hafizah actually carried the dustbin all around the garden.. it was so funny.. :) haha.. am seriously gonna play again..
yeah.. i know.. the tag board.. okay.. i don't know what this computer has a problem with or whether it even has a problem or if it's just plain idotic but i have no idea where my tag board went.. it's like.. it was there one second ago and now it's not there anymore.. it's like ACK..
people get weird when they go to sec 3.. they get more serious..less interested with life and more interested in getting critical of themselves.. and then wham! they're not themselves anymore.. they think they're becoming adults and that it's a transtition.. they think nobody understands them anymore because everyone is different... and then suddenly they withdraw from everything..things that they were proud of before suddenly seem so stupid and hard to believe and then it's all black and getting mad at everyone.. finding interest in one special person but then finding out that it doesn't make sense anymore.. it's not attraction.. it's infactuation(blame the dictionary for that!)... and then it's all over.. you're not yourself anymore.. you get immersed in your homework and your "own life".. things.. people you used to love.. are becoming more like your Most Hated People and Things..
well... i dun know what to say anymore... it has never before been so difficult to say what i want to say,,, but today,my vocabulary is dismal.. i just don't know what to say...i'm confused now... alot of emotions seem to be emnanating from me and i don't know which instint i should be following.. or if i should even be following them at all..i'm just very lost right now...and i need to be left alone.. wouldn't know what to say anyway...
what do you call someone who doesn't teach you well and then gives you a 6 on an SS test? What do you call someone who has got all the things he can possibly need but does not make use of them? What do you call someone who doesn't believe in himself? What do you call a person who has been hurt and then proceeds to hurt someone else just to relieve himself? what do you call a dog who cannot fetch a bone?
anyway.. i gotta go now.. researching on hieroglyphics..
Bye!
5:53 AM.
" Friday, August 24, 2007
so.. like i was saying i get influenced by alot of things and the thing is that until you stand for something you tend to fall for everything.. what on earth..anyway.. i need time to figure it out.. until then, let me bore you with my account of what happened today..
okay.. so today.. i was very cheerful and a bit too hyper and i kept singing the Beautiful Girls song..and then i had to go for the Ethnic Heritage thingie at the Discovery Centre to cover for Editorial. it was kinda okay.. i guess.. i mean minus the boring speeches and Izwan doing weird(but it was a little.. wait.. VERY funny :)) stuff..oh and there was this woman with a knife in her back pocket...Dang.. she was scary..but.. (i'll be honest) she was the funniest of them all.. Female Crocodile Dundee.. oh and the bald guy who laughed like a dog panting(without the tongue) .. and the fact that i had to go interview the Minister of State S.Iswaran.. that was really intidimating.. and then i had to rush home since i had tuition at 6.30.. anyway.. today was fun.. i guess
oh...
AND I WANNA WATCH HAIRSPRAY!!!
1:18 AM.
" Tuesday, August 21, 2007
what is the world coming to? '2 hostages return home', 'obstacles to a new peace? Why are we fighting each other? South Koreans aid workers who go to Afghanistan are abducted, after the Taliban kills two men.. What kind of world are we living in now? "Last month tensions rose amid a row with Washington over US plans to station a missile defence shield in central Europe, after Mr Putin threatened to aim nuclear weapons in Europe at the end of May"..Yesterday, i was in the library and i saw this article about Dharavi, Mumbai's biggest slum.. you should have seen the photos..i've
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3:07 AM.
" Monday, August 20, 2007
4:06 AM.
" Wednesday, August 15, 2007
haa.. gotta go now.. Genocide in Rwanda and what not..
talk to you later..
Soon..
3:39 AM.
" Tuesday, August 14, 2007
ANyway.. guess who scored a 24 out of 50 for an English Compre Test? Me! That's who!! Oh God!! it's just.. i mean come on .. 24?? Pathetic 24?? out of 50?? hello?? What kind of justice is this? oh.. i'm gonna have to work so hard.. Dang! Finished my E Math tuition homework.. have to work on my A Math Textbook Revision Exercises...
Oh God.. i'm like so engrossed with school, half on this entry is practically dedicated to it.. Focus..
Oh consumed a Bloody Sundae with Constance today.. (strawberry sundaes reinvented :)) and then ate Hui Yi's "toh gan" Oh and there's going to be a collaboration with ELDDS and Editorial Board this Friday.. won't divulge too much here.. my junior are major cyber-geeks..see ya then!!
Love Y'all
(wonder why i'm so happy today? I mean, come on i failed my English Compre Test.. there must be something seriously wrong with me)
3:45 AM.
" Sunday, August 12, 2007
if this isn't weird, then what is?
2:02 AM.
" Monday, August 06, 2007
2:49 AM.
" Thursday, August 02, 2007
AN IDIOT!!! that's what!
