oh i've missed you so much! i can't believe i'm actually saying this to some inanimate object but hey, i've been studying alot and i guess all my hardwork has paid off.. or in other words.. my transformation to a geek is complete .. oh well, things could be worse i guess.. wait, who am i kidding? i'm in the middle of my freaking Os.. Mmhm... yeah well.. whatever..
honestly.. this is disgusting.. China knowing about the Sanlu milk scandal four months before telling the public on one side and on the other, hungry children in the rural parts of the world not having even the basic necessities.. i mean, how selfish have we become to notice only our sufferings, our pain, our emo-ness and forget about the many millions who do not have a proper bed to sleep on? seriously, if you are whining about how your parents don't understand you, nobody loves you or why you're such a social disease.. you should honestly reconsider.. sure, you have problems.. who doesn't? i mean, come on even Paris Hilton has problems (i'll bet she doesn't know what a cosine rule is).. not to mention Abraham Lincoln (whose own wife was incessantly nagging at him all the time)..
you know the thing that really struck me about this whole year was my attitude towards my studies.. like at the start of the year, i was really hyped up and working really hard and then it just started to spiral downwards.. isn't that weird? like aren't you supposed to work upwards and then at the end be like a hamster on a wheel? i don't know.. i see all these people freaking out around me and i'm so cool ( read: listening to my iPod and moving my head like it's stuck on a skewer) and calm.. The ironic thing is that watching them freak makes me kinda freak but it so does not programme my brain or willpower to actually study..
Anyway.. I watched To Kill A Mockingbird yesterday.. it was nice in this weird black and white sorta way.. Wait.. Yupp it's me.. i'm weird.. i wake up early.. i sleep early.. i watch black and white movies and i know what a fish fork is.. Dang! i'm even weirder than i thought.. tsk tsk..but whatever, at least i don't cross the road holding my heart ( this kinda happened.. this kid i saw, he actually looked scared to cross the road.. for the record, it was like about 2m in length and trust me darlin this ain't Roadkill Day )
4:11 AM.
" Wednesday, October 01, 2008
So face it.. your problem might seem big to you but its not the only problem in the world.. do you really think slashing is going to help you? all it will and can do is ruin your pretty arms and never allow to wear a bikini again.. and considering the weather in Singapore.. you might as well be committing social suicide..
i don't know.. i think it's pretty stupid of people to drown in their own sorrows when they could actually rebound from them any time they want.. it's not like there's an actual person pushing you down is there? Even if there is, its surely up to us to make the difference and move on.. it's tough.,. but that's the stuff life is made of.. are you sure you want to remember your days as a depressed teenager? what the hell are you going to tell your kids? "So kids, listen hard and good.. Your dad was a freaking depressed kid.. your mom still has scars from her slashing days.. You have a lot to live up to . So get slashing." ??? Are you really going to say that?
