the influx of emotions that surround me feel as though they've been there for AGES and it just took me that long to realise that they were there. i just can't iamgine what would have happened if you hadn't opened my eyes to the rest of the world. for one thing, i would still be thinking that the world is a happy place to live in that it's just made up of rainbows and smiles.. but i guess not.. you didn't say anything to me but i can sense it.. it's there lingering around us every time we talk.. it's this heavy sort of feeling that you just can't shrug off because it's inside of us.. we can't take a part of us and throw it out... or so i thought.. until you did just the thing.. i'm not sure of anything right now.. this perfect facade of the world that i built so painstakingly is showing signs of relenting into a huge muck of dust and crap.. and i'm not sure i want to stay inside of it anymore.. maybe it's because i was too deluded to see the facts and not i just want to go back to being ignorant of the whole thing...
i can't take it anymore.. people asking me for something, everytime.. i try to be the best i can be..but it always falls short of their expectations.. it's starting to get to me.. i'm not perfect.. and i don't want to be anyway.. if you can't freaking accept it, don't.. just don't ask me to accomodate to your thoughts or feelings or sentiments.. cuz... forget it.. ACK! flying fudge.. you wouldn't understand..
