i'm in such a bad mood today.. and you wanna know the really bad part? i don't even know why i'm feeling so low... God! it's so confusing..
i really don't want to do this but.. i mean if this is the only way i can vent without accidentally hurting somebody.. then...
people should really make their priorities more clearer.. i mean if they wanna like choose something that's more important than the thing that we're doing together presently, then they should let me know and not just back out at the last minute leaving me all flustered and at a loss as to what to do.. i mean seriously.. does it really take that much to tell me "Mythili, i'm sorry but i can't handle this since i have other pressing issues that i also have to take care of." i mean, come on.. i may be a girl but i'm not that petty as to have a lifelong feud with you or something.. i can be understanding you know and maybe say that it's pretty much alright but i might need your help at a small scale and would you help me out? it's basic courtesy...
and then another thing.. i can tolerate almost anything in the world.. i mean i won't get mad at you for the slightest reason but the one thing i really cannot tolerate is people taking advantage of me being too nice and not saying anything to them..i mean if you like tell me all your problems, chances are i'll listen and then give you some advice but i'm not Oprah.. i can't possibly give you genius esque advices.. i'll help you along the way but i have my own personal life too.. i can't be thinking of you 24/7.. i'll do my best to help you but at the same time.. i do have my own stuff and problems to handle...and if the problem is that pressing.. i'll even put aside all of own problems to help you.. but is appreciation such a big word to use here? i'm not asking for Humaritanian of the Year award.. but is the phrase "Thank you".. undecipherable to you or in Greek? And just because i'm nice and smile too much doesn't mean that i have a sunshine life .. i've got my own problems.. sometimes.. i need time out and there are times when i can snap at you for the slightest things but it really isn't neccessary to use that against me when i'm talking to you or having a particularly unfriendly day... i mean come on.. every dog has it's day..
i think i feel better now.. i'm gonna go finish reading The Pianist..
