well... i dun know what to say anymore... it has never before been so difficult to say what i want to say,,, but today,my vocabulary is dismal.. i just don't know what to say...i'm confused now... alot of emotions seem to be emnanating from me and i don't know which instint i should be following.. or if i should even be following them at all..i'm just very lost right now...and i need to be left alone.. wouldn't know what to say anyway...