hello!
I think i have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder ( OCD).I was reading this book and then the girl was saying that she had OCD and that she kept on counting till sixteen before she spoke and that she was afraid of germs. It sounded a lot like me so i did a Yahoo! Health search and it says that:
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a potentially disabling anxiety disorder. A person who has OCD has intrusive and unwanted thoughts and repeatedly performs tasks to get rid of the thoughts. For example, if you have OCD, you may fear that everything you touch is contaminated with germs, and in order to ease that fear, you repeatedly wash your hands.
This thought can be a bit startling. I mean all those things i did, i never really thought of them before. For example whenever i walk along a row of trees or anything for that matter the trees have to be in order to this tune that has been stuck in my head which goes c f c f e f g d g d g f e f. And then the things i do have to be in even order. Or they have to be counted as even numbers. Like Literature. And that the spellings of words i cannot get have to be repeated until i get it right and then fact that i can't get the spelling of tomorrow right is because i can't pronounce it. And then my name. On the handphone it has to be pressed an even number of times. Mythili. And the fact that i worked out that whose name cannot be pressed an even number of times are those that are not so close to be but i get along with them. And those that have names that can be pressed an even number of times are those people that i can share close things with. And that no matter what i do my hands will always be dirty. And if i even want to stroke my hair, i have to wash them first. Or that if i am out, i will wait until i get home and then completely wash my hair. Or the fact that i will scream if any of my food mixes with something i don't want to. Or that i never take my salad in a bowl because then the bowl will be spoilt because of my other food and then it will be too disgusting to eat. Or the fact that whenever anyone burps, i feel dirty and somehow i want to get out of there as soon as possible. Or the fact that i will remove my pillow cover if anyone other than me sleeps on my pillow. Or that my room always has to be clean before i can be truly happy. Or that if i don't wear a certain colour on a certain day, my day will be ruined. Or that if i see any ants, i will get this mad urge to brush it off or kill it but that i won't get the same feeling about any other bugs. Or that if my handwriting is messy, i will rewrite it until i get it right.
Gosh! Now i feel like a freak. I've never really thought of these things before. I just thought that if these were habits that would soon peel off once i got over my adolscence.
