Hello!
All you wonderful people out there! i'm in a very good mood today! god knows why! i mean there is nothing good to feel about. like i woke this morning and found out that my hair looks like some dish cloth and i have two new pimples on my forehead. and i haven't eaten anything except for a cheese sandwich that i deserted half way through. but still, it is a wonderful morning and i have a new jacket to boast about.
Maybe the reason i'm really happy is because my dad is leaving tomorrow and going to india for a business conference. it might seem mean of me to say so but to tell you the truth, my dad hasn't treated me very kindly lately. Sure,he goes around reading this book called 'Always Daddy's Girls' but honestly i don't see what good that book is doing. He just seems to get meaner and meaner to me by the day. in fact i don't think my father and i have ever had a conversation in which he has actually tried to understand my point of view. and then he says that i don't respect him enough. but what he doesn't realise is that respect is not forced but is earned along the way. yes, he is my father and i have to respect him and everything but all i can say for now is that he has done nothing to make me feel respectful towards him. Maybe i might i sound really rude to you now. and to tell you the truth, i feel ashamed of myself right now talking about my father like that. But i'm willing to bet that my father has never felt ashamed about the unkind things that he has said to me over the years. Has he ever considered my feelings? All he can see is my results and that's it! No talking about how my day was. No asking about what i want to do in life! No asking about my friends. No discussions! No conversations! Not even talking! It's always screaming and shouting and arguing about things. And when i try to tell him about my point of view, he always says the same thing; "It's an important virtue, respect. And that can be shown if you were to keep your mouth shut, Mythili and learn to keep your bloody opinions to yourself unless asked."
It's said that fathers play an important role in a daughter's life, regarding her behaviour with other men. But i don't want my father to influence the way i treat other men, because if i do, it will be in a mean and rude way. I really hope that one day, my father will get off his trojan horse and realise that he doesn't have a son but a daughter with sensitive feelings that can be hurt. Sometimes, i wonder if my dad was dissapointed with the fact that i was born a girl and not a boy. I'll bet he was. He always acts like it.
Anyway, i've got to run now!
Au Revoir!
